All about life

life and death is such a sensitive subject.

There are certain things in life that changes us. Certain people that hold a certain space in our hearts regardless of what this person was or has become. We all hold someone very dear in our hearts. These past few months have been some of the worst months of my life, 4 people I know passed away. I felt lost and scared when I heard the news this time, I'm not sure what any of this means and I'm still trying to figure it out. There are certain things I'm too scared to admit, certain circumstances I don't want to face so I run. I run as far away as I can because that's the only way I know how to cope. Coping for me means forgetting what happened, denying the truth. Ignorance is bliss and I live everyday as ignorant as possible.

Staring at the ocean I felt infinite with the wind blowing in my face. Can life be this beautiful? Are things as bad as it seems? Will the grass be greener on the other side? Hope and optimism is something I've always lacked and when I stood there, I felt like everything would be better. Life is infinite and I believe everyone has a choice, we can choose the kind of mindset we want. Thank you for bringing me here I.