life keeps going

I'm 22 this year, and I still haven't felt like I've achieved much... or anything at all. I put life on hold sometimes when things don't go right.

There's an abundant of personal stuff that I'm not going to explain or go into detail, but it pretty much went like this.

J decided to make a wrong choice and he decided he wanted to break up.

J meets another girl

I meet other boys

J breaks up with other girl

I end up with another boy

J wants to get back together

I'm in love with another boy

drama.

decisions.

lies.

clusterfuck.

J trys to win me back

I end up with J after breaking up for over half a year.

It's not romantic, it wasn't pretty, and I'm not proud.

I felt like I changed as a person after we broke up, I became more confident, I thought I was happy but I feel like J is the only person that can make me happy. We are stronger than ever, but what happened still hurts. I hate myself for hurting others, and that's something I will always have to live with.

Love isn't a fairytale, we can only make the best out of it. Try to embrace ourselves while loving the other person. I learned it the hard way, and I'm so content and happy now. I think I just need to figure out what to do with my life now.

Life still goes on even if you have a broken heart, but a broken heart can always be mended.